Sunday, October 26, 2008

Happy First Birthday, Aubrie!

[10-26-08] Ate Tasha and Baby Aubrie

So, aside from it being extremely windy outside, my baby cousin just turned one! I cannot believe how time flies, oh my goodness. She's so precious. And let me tell you, she smells like roses.

Family gatherings are always interesting for me. It's a time for eating and tsismis for us Filipinos, who's working where, who's dating whom, etc. It's basically our own way of catching up with one another. My grandma, (not really my grandma, but my late grandpa's sister whom I refer to as Lola, or grandma, out of respect) pulled me aside today and told me to make sure to just have one baby. I laughed and told her I was nowhere near having children yet but that I'd keep it in mind.

She said that was wonderful news and I insisted I'm far too selfish to even think of having kids right now. Having written that last sentence out, I begin to wonder if I'm a horrible person. I like to think of it as just honest. Don't get me wrong, I love kids and I enjoy being around kids, I'm even really awesome with kids, just as long as they're not my own. Which got me to thinking, do I even want kids? I mean, when it comes down to it, I think I just want one, or two tops. And I want both boys. I wish my sisters would start having kids now, but I understand that they want to wait a year or so. I can't wait to be an Aunt.

When I finally do have children (if I do decide to), I want to make sure I'm ready to give myself entirely to them. Parenting is self-sacrifice. And I'm not ready to give up my dreams just yet, there is still so much I want to do with my life before having kids. Of course I'm not saying having a baby would force me to give up my dreams, but it would certainly postpone it. So until then, I'm just going to have to borrow other babies :)

Aubrie and Czarina
Loving her face with Miks
Cz and I
Singing "Happy Birthday"
Super windblown sisters


  1. It's funny you say that (about being selfish) bc I don't think it's bad to acknowledge it, if it's the truth. I was definitely selfish when I got pregnant...when I was with my ex, I wanted kids. And young. but when I broke up with him I decided kids weren't for me and I was perfectly happy being other people's nanny (that was my 2nd job at the time). I remember crying to my husband days before I was due to give birth bc I "didn't want a baby" etc etc. He got so mad at me hehe But anyways, now I wouldn't have my life any other way. You are definitely right that having a baby postpones your hopes and dreams. But it's funny bc now my hopes and dreams are more about Dylan's life than about myself.

    Tell your sisters to have their babies together. It's a lot more fun that way haha

    And's NOT bad if you don't want kids. I used to tell my parents (when they'd talk about grandkids) that they needed to shut it bc all they were getting were grand dogs. haha But I'm an only their dire need for grandchildren is acceptable, I guess. =P

    How's the vegetarian thing going for ya? You look good in your pics!

  2. Look, my first comment! I like the blog post, it's refreshingly personal in a non-invasive you can ask me later.

    PS: Have our babies together...I don't think so. We already did our weddings pretty close together and I think one life milestone is good :0) Love you T-Miks

    PPS: Thanks for the pic, it was so adorable I had to make it my Fbook pic. Miss you on there!

  3. I would love for one of you to have babies soon but I'm not sure if I could handle it if the both of you did it together again lol. Auntie Tasha would go crazy!

    And thanks Ceez, I love the non-invasive part. Silly girl.

    You're welcome for the picture. I miss you too. But not Facebook :)